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dear you,
today i finally lost.
i just couldn’t take it.
i thought i was strong,
i guess not.
maybe
i should’ve given you another chance
perhaps
i should’ve held on longer
or
given you the benefit of the doubt
given you more advice
been able to understand your joke
said something earlier.
i can give
a million excuses
to blame it on me.
but, there’s no excuse
to call me
a [redacted].
didn’t you stop
for a second
to think
that maybe
that was
wrong
to say?
did
you
really
think
that
of
me?
i hope not.
i hope
that
was
only
just
a
twisted
joke.
because for four months
you made
a mess of my mind.
you said i made you feel confident.
you said you loved me.
but, a lover wouldn’t call me a [redacted].
now, that i think, were we even friends either?
because a real friend wouldn’t do that.
even as a joke.
i’m glad
i blocked
you.